misses n gains

i miss the times where unconditional actions were done, the unconditional care shown and the company of it.

for the past few months, weirdly, feel like having a kid more than ever. sounds weird? right now, monetary issues are no longer priorties. not that money is no longer important, just that earning those big bucks to sustain the luxurious lifestyle are not the focus anymore.

i want my little crib with my people. N don tells me to get a gf...

tolerance

My friends tell me I show my frustration easily and its puts them in situations they do not know how to solve. I've been trying to hold back but how many times can we actually put up with the same nonsense from the same person all the time.

I've made my comments, advice known and yet the same things happen time and time again. The simpliest issue can be made into the biggest event of the year, what's the problem? why cant a simple issue be solved with a simple solution instead of making it a big problem for everyone?

Insensible suggestions, immature thinking...how long before someone else come forward to knock some sense into these ppl.

What would you do if your friend suggest getting 2 new players into the team but one person among the team would have to leave because these new players come in a pair and the team would be overloaded with an extra player? I guess the solution is that simple just that some people dont really treat their friends as friends.

permanenty removed

how many times have we tried to plan or organise gatherings for fellow mates only for them to 'fly the plane' at the last minute with the lamest excuses ever?

my mates and i have experienced this from a same person for the whole damn semester, its seems like something this person has to do, to kinda get our attention which is bloody wrong. i've heard she likes to be asked many times (persuaded) by people, but wtf!!! i'm so sick i decided to not ask her for a period of time, yet she nv fail perform her really lame ass excuses last minute.

but recently i decided to give it a try and forward my friend's request for the beach to her. not bad, cause she actually replied and mentioned she cant swim (who cares). Alas, she did her damn best not to disappoint me by sms-ing me this 'I've jus been reminded that i'm alrd going sentosa on Sunday, so i guess u guys go ahead and hav fun'

WOW, i asked on monday for a friday event, but hey, someone actually reminded her that she's going on sunday, so we're ditched. why cant she like go twice? what's wrong with us? we got monster bumps that are contagious?? or we got ugly faces so u cant hang out with us?

for all i know she just made that freaking thing out, nonsense is what i keep hearing from her.

Hell of a sem

As the title suggests, its been hell for me and of course my fellow friends who endure similar fate as me. There are those who are shld be suffering like us but choose to leave the work to the rest because they had their personal things to do...well...F up ppl.

Much suffering, but we had fun times, endless day and night of enjoyment on 2 Wednesdays. The beach, the drinking, eating and smoking, our little distractions from the hectic schedules. Oh we had a freaking $25 durian on one occasion...bloody most expensive fruit i ever eaten, it came down to like $3 per seed we took or something, nothing can go to waste. So next time if anyone decides to go Geylang for some durian, please be cautious. check the freaking prices.

Projects after projects, then came our exams. And not surprising, we're fooled by some of our lecturers. Hope they live well.

Finally came our getaway chalet. Last minute booking, but its cool, cause it only cost us like $60 to stay there for 3 days, but the cab fares for our clubbing was kinda insane. The chalet was kinda a disappointment. At this point of time, I eventually gave up hope of tryin to enjoy it with everyone, WHY? cause the people just dont appreciate it. Its the same few of us organising cause most people wanted it. The people agreed to the activities but decided to back out last minute which effectively left the few of us entertaining ourselves at Zouk. I even thought of cancelling the clubbing since no one wanna go, but hell. The people just decide to come like late on the 2nd day, which meant the few of us have to entertain ourselves again for like half the day. And on the drinking night, no one wants to drink, so its the few of us again. (why dont the few of us just go by ourselves?)

Things I hope people do: please dont ask for advice/opinions if you're not going to listen or take into consideration (except for dumbass replies), please dont say things that you're not going to do and then panic when it's asked of you and please be polite enough to give reasons for your actions when it affects people.

what else

when they say this year you 'fan tai sui' which means offending i dont know which deity...it really means 'fan tai sui'...

man..lousy results from my first assignment, having lecturers who do and say different things altogether and knowing people getting results they dont actually deserve is really pissing me off....

efforts are not paying off, priorities set seem to be damn wrong and not finding time to ease my mind...seems like the army all over again....

continue to challenge all these and face possible misery? or just accept the damn fact that shit happens to the best of us?

try outs

something got over me ever since i started school or maybe ORD...i'm slowly trying out new stuff or activities i've never done before...

these are stuff i use to dislike doing...or would consider probably 10 times before going into it...perhaps its the chance that i've been fortunately given...

having viewed how working life would be...the urge to try while we're still studying (feels like lesser responsibility)is too strong, doesnt sound right...but its probably the best time...even considering blood donation when i'm freaking scared of needles and learning jazz hahaha...got a big laugh from my mum...

trying to learn more recipes...enriching and preparing for what's ahead...

life....

drained, beat, punctured....life's crazy journey with wonderful experiences to enrich it.